sunshine

While this may seem overly obvious, I just want to say I am grateful for sunshine.

And spring flowers!  YAY!

"cheats" don't work for me or any addictive eaters I know

I have to eat to live. BUT, I do not have to eat those things that are triggers for binge eating, usually sugar and refined grains. I know if I eat anything with sugar in it, or white flour, or snack foods like corn chips, I cannot eat just one. If I eat one, then I will eat more and more. There is no stopping place. It's not like eating broccoli, where, if I've had enough, I just stop. There's never enough. I might eat until I pop. Sometimes, I don't drag myself away from the food until feel ill from overeating--and then there are my allergies.  I have the misfortune to have addictive allergies and to tend to crave those foods to which I am allergic.  I want to eat what makes me sick.  It's a vicious cycle.

If I eat sugar, white flower, corn chips, etc, I not only want more NOW, I also want more LATER.  But if I stay "clean" and abstinent, I get to the point where I no longer crave those things--it takes a week to ten days of misery.

I have to say that I am better at this now than I used to be. I am pretty good at staying out of the things that trigger me worst: sugar and white flour. But parties are very dangerous places for me. I do not know what's in the food, and I am tempted to eat things I shouldn't. And it only takes one bite to set me off. When I go to a party or family gathering, I am usually good and sick for 3-4 days or more afterwards. I am healthiest when I just stay home.

But I am on a "plateau" in my weight-loss program, and I think it's because of my little "cheats."  Cheating doesn't work for me, because of my addictive allergies.  I am unable to eat a handful or corn chips without wanting more.

My fibromyalgia is generally better than it was, somewhat, as is my insomnia, but I had a terrible night two nights ago, and a terrible day yesterday.  And I think it was the food I ate several days ago.

diet report

I lost the two tenths of a pound I gained last week.  I need to get cracking here!

It was snowing earlier, but now the sun is out.

napping

I did something I almost never do--I can't remember the last time I did it.  I fell asleep in my husband's arms after dinner--ah sweet sleep.  A nap is very unusual for me and it felt great.

two tenths of a pound

I was really sad when I weighed myself this AM--I was up. But when I looked carefully at last week's weight, I was only up two tenths of a pound. I'd rather stay the same, or better yet, LOSE WEIGHT, but I guess two tenths of a pound isn't that horrendous.

Diet Report for Friday, March 7, 2008

Diet Report for Friday, March 7, 2008

(I just lost this document after typing it and now I have to do it over, which is annoying and wasteful of time and energy and is making me angry.  GGGrrrrr!)

I lost 1.8 pounds since Tuesday, which is good.  Not great, but adequate.

However, over the last weekend, we had a series of unfortunate diet events:  a birthday and a funeral.  Saturday we ate at KFC and Sunday we had funeral food.  On Tuesday I had gained 4.4 pounds from the previous week.  So I have 2.6 pounds to lose just to get back to where I was a week and a half ago--so I am off track.  :-(

And we are going out to dinner tonight--it's hard to diet when we go out to dinner.  But Soldier boy is home on leave and everyone thinks we have to EAT in order t visit.  We had suggested an evening after dinner get-together.  But they suggested dinner and Biker Buddy agreed.  So dinner it is.  And they want pizza, which everyone else loves and I am allergic to.

Tuesday was my last mid-week weigh-in, according to my plan, but for me, weighing every day reminds me to stick to the diet.  I have ADHD and I easily forget otherwise.  So weighing once a week is not necessarily a good idea no matter what anyone else thinks.  Not for me.  But I am going to give it a one-month trial.

I've been very good about exercising every day, even when it's icy or blizzarding or raining hard etc.  I've been walking or jogging or shovelling snow 45 minutes to an hour or more a day every day.

So how are you doing?  S'up?  (I had my water media class followed by a second walk followed by dinner followed by Parent-teacher-student conferences so I wasn't able to get on-line to speak of last night and am way behind on email and blogging.)

Cool leaping

Cool leaping, by Mary Stebbins Taitt.

Yes another variation. (Others at Imagik and No Polar).

Good and Grateful Savoring

Good and Grateful Savoring

2-26-08, T

• I am GRATEFUL for the snow (as long as we all stay safe) because I am happy to get exercise shoveling snow.  I feel as if I am being useful and "killing two birds with one stone."  Or maybe I should say instead, feeding two birds with one seed?  I'm accomplishing two things at once, anyway, which is good.  :-)
• I have been and am SAVORING the beauty of the new-fallen snow.  I like the snow on the fine branches of the dogwood and on the spruce.  I've been enjoying it immensely, looking, savoring, taking pictures.  Imagining art pieces, appreciating nature's art.
• I am grateful that I lost weight once more.  YAY!  :-D  3.2 pounds down today from my last weigh-in.
• I am grateful that I had time to work on an art piece today
  

2-25-08, M

• I am grateful that I got my exercise by walking to and from Dr. Beeai's.  Two accomplishments at once.
• I am very grateful that I did not get sick coming or going or while I was there (At Dr. Beeai's).
• I am grateful that I got a poem revised. YAY!  :-D
  
• I am grateful that Keith read to me.  YAY!  :-D
  

Another weight Loss! YAY!

Another weight Loss!  YAY!

In four days since my last weigh-in, I lost 3.2 pounds, in SPITE of going to a party on Sunday and significantly overeating.  Or, maybe because of it.  I got very sick and was sick Sunday night, all day yesterday, and am still sick.  I didn't eat much yesterday and lost a lot of what I had eaten.  But there is a silver lining to certain clouds.  Instead of gaining weight, which I probably would have, I lost weight, which is good news.  :-D

Ungrateful! :-(

Ungrateful!  :-(

Things I am NOT grateful for:

I just spilled my paint water, more than a quart of water with water colors in it, down through my ribbons and wrapping papers and all through my poems and stories done on an inkjet printer and onto a cream-colored rug--and now I have a HUGE mess to clean up.

I AM grateful it's not worse than it is, however.  I could have been MUCH worse.  But still.  It would have been better had it not happened at all!

I am still sick.  WAHN!