Wednesday, August 22, 2007
This is probably really boring, but I am trying to correlate my insomnia with other things to see if I can determine a cause and change my behavior accordingly:
Insomnia Report, 8/22/07I went to bed at 11:38 and got up again without having fallen asleep at 12:15 AM, feeling "restless and agitated." Neither of those adjectives are quite on target. I felt a sense of "pressure to move and dislike of laying still." A sense of having to get up and move. I got up and did some things I was feeling guilty about not having done (eg: unloaded the dishwasher and put the dishes away (I did not help with that earlier because I needed to sit after the walk), collected a few things for the trip to California, etc). I returned to bed at 3:30 AM feeling tired but not sleepy. I eventually fell asleep and woke up about 7:30, feeling neither relaxed nor sleepy. Lay there for almost an hour trying to sleep again and gave up. Got up around 8:25 AM. I am estimating my sleep at 3.75 hours but it may actually have been less.
My insomnia was correlated with: a late walk, a tiny bit of dairy (1/2 tsp sour cream inadvertently licked from a spoon (old habits die hard)), mild IBS, binge eating (I ate some cheerios after I put away the dishes with rice milk)(I have not done any binge eating for a while--this came after, not before the insomnia state began), raisins, an earlier brief episode of anger that followed the raisins, an earlier brief episode of depression that followed on the heels of the anger, guilt and worry, beet sugar, eggs, corn, oats, garlic.
My insomnia was NOT correlated with: beef, crawly skin, itchier than normal skin, worse than normal bad neck and arm, eating out, eating at someone else's house, bad asthma or hay fever, soy, nuts (not the previous day, but two days before), apples, onions or shallots, nightshades, legumes.
Posted by Mary Stebbins Taitt at 10:52 AM
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Thursday, August 16, 2007
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When I picture my days and nights, I imagine working hard, accomplishing great things, loving, traveling, writing gardening, doing art, walking running biking visiting and then sleeping the sleep of the justly tired, peaceful happy sleep. I do not imagine sitting all night (literally) in a stupor, too agitated to sleep and too tired to accomplish anything meaningful, and laying about exhausted and sick during the day. Not do I imagine wasting time sitting on the toilet unable to pass anything but having to try and try because I uncomfortable with needing to go. The day dribbles away, wasted by long phone calls from distant relatives, nurses, people wanting to set up appointments. I’m so far behind on things that need attention that I fee like someone treading water and becoming too exhausted and chilled to keep my head up and sinking slowly deeper. The best (and worst) laid plans of mice and men gwyn aft awry or gwyn aft entirely.