Saturday, June 26, 2010
You can't wait for inspiration. You have to go after it with a club.
- Jack London
"A foolish faith in authority is the worst enemy of truth." Einstein, from a letter to a friend in 1901 when he was 22
"The fist is more than a sum of its fingers." Margaret Atwood
"Our truest responsibility to the irrationality of the world is to paint
or sing or write, for only in such response do we find the truth." ~Madeleine L'Engle
If everyone is thinking alike, then somebody isn't thinking.
George S. Patton
Friday, June 25, 2010
On good days, I love laying in bed and hopefully sleeping in the morning, maybe half the time. on bad days, which seem to be more like 3/4 of the time, hate lying in bed at night--I get so restless and agitated I can't stand it!!!
I am up tonight with insomnia. Wahn!!
I don't know why some nights I can sleep and others I can't. I have a warning though--when I lie down, if I start hallucinating dream-like images while I'm awake, I probably will not sleep. Which happened tonight. Tired and wired, yawning like mad, but wide awake. And hungry!
- was it the eight potato chips I ate at the end of dinner? Or the later than normal dinner?
- was it the very late (but short) walk I took after 9:30 at night, about 15 minutes?
- was it the worry of the day? The annoyance I felt with K and G? Or what? WHY?
Wednesday, June 09, 2010
I force my body to lie still in the bed, tangle it with blankets
to tie it to the dark end of night, close my eyes,
and pretend to sleep, but inside my quiet legs,
my unquiet legs are running, running,
and the tattered moths my of eyes beat and beat
against the cage of my skull.
Somewhere, an invisible light keeps calling me,
a light I can't turn off, no matter how many times
I pull its chain.
I am as small as an ant. I am a song in the wind.
Sleep holds its breath and counts and counts,
but there are never enough sheep, never enough
boring stories to fix me in the womb of darkness.
I tumble like a weed, a diaspore. I am an exploding star.
A memory rising from oblivion. A haunting.
Mary Stebbins Taitt
Tuesday, June 08, 2010
Thursday, June 03, 2010
becasue I was restless and agitated. An hour and a half ago, I took
two Tylenol PMs becasue my fibro pain was interfering with my
relaxing. It did NOT put me to sleep!
I had a normal breakfast of oatmeal and bran with rice milk, I had
shredded wheat and rice milk for lunch (not normal, but I've had it
recently without being up all night.), and for dinner, I had ntua
steaks (not normal) and a normal stir-fry. Veggies etc. Nothing
I did take my vitamins at dinner instead of breakfast and I did not
take any melatonin and haven't been for several days. I haven't had a
bad night like this for a little while.
Sometimes, it seems that if I am angry or uset, I can't sleep. But I
was not angry or upset. Not that I know of.
I don't know what causes it, but I hate it! :-(
I wasn't angry or upset before, but I am now. :-(