Saturday, August 09, 2008

Bullets of Sadness

I am feeling sad. Or maybe I'm depressed. Or both.
  • I am sad that my vacation is over and I am home. I don't really LIKE it here very much.
  • I miss my friends.
  • I miss my family.
  • I miss my children.
  • I am afraid I may never see my brothers again.
  • I miss my parents. Now that we have buried them, it seems so final.
  • I'm not feeling well.
  • My pinched nerve is still very painful--I was hoping so much that the pain would subside.
  • I'm tired.
  • I had to walk in the neighborhood instead of somewhere fun.
  • (BUT I did see a LOVELY RAINBOW). But I got rained on and it faded before I got home to tell BB about it and show it to him. (The lighting was exquisite--sunset lighting and a brilliant rainbow. A full arc. I had a moment of actual joy when I discovered it.)
  • My feet hurt.
  • I suffer from Hedonic Adaptation. That means sometimes lovely things begin to fail to cheer after a short time.
  • (BUT I DID enjoy seeing my friends and family and visiting the Porcupine mountains earlier! :-D)
  • I think I am suffering from a post vacation let down. After a day of rest I'll probably feel better,
  • (BB is making dinner because I don't feel well--AND HE drove all the way home 7 hours in hard rain--I should be making dinner for HIM!)
  • (I'm grateful he's willing.) (I don't know why I'm so sad.)


BerryBird said...

I do think it is a combination of exhaustion and post-vacation let down, like you said. You will be able to spend more time drawing and painting now that you are home, and those things bring you great pleasure. I do hope you feel better!

Mary Stebbins Taitt said...

I DO feel better, generally, in spite of another complaining post. THANKS!





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