Monday, March 13, 2006

note from journal

I've been cleaning and cleaning today, mostly sorting, actually.  I threw out lots of cards, notes and letters including ones that made me very sad because they were written in the hand of people who've died, Judy, my Aunty Ann, Aunt Roberta and Uncle John and so on.  Very sad.

I will keep all the old journals I unearthed.  I opened each to be sure it actually was written in and not blank, and found this in one:

My first husband, Peter, told me that if I ever left him, he would follow me to the end of the earth, find me wherever I went, and kill me, slowly and painfully--and I believed him.  I had reason to.  He'd already followed me and found me when I tried to run away.  He'd beaten me, each time worse than the time before.  But I kept running.

I am certain of nothing but the Heart's affections and the truth of the Imagination- John Keats


Rrramone said...

Wow, that entry stopped me. Very powerful. And I'm glad you're still here.

Mary Stebbins Taitt said...

Me, too! LOL!

I am glad that part of my life is over. Peter alled a while ago to ask me to forgive him. I didn't want to. I had to think about it long and hard. It was very hard. But I finally did. It makes me cry (and gives me the shivers) thinking about it.

Now I have a partner who is kind to me and if anyhting, I am hard on him, though I don't want to be!!!!

peacorpus said...

Oh Mary, I share this with you too. I am also glad that that part of my life is over. And that I have found the one who will love me and whom i will love forever. YEBA!!!

Mary Stebbins Taitt said...

I'm so glad too!!!! YEBA YEBA YEBA!! I hope it works out for you and that you can be soon together!!

(and for me, too!)


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